Her story starts as Lady Eivana, a high class Ishgardian soldier who once aimed to be a dragoon.
She didn't see Azure Dragoon as the goal, just being a dragoon would have been enough to satisfy her and her family. Her family, all with silver eyes, expected her to excel in something that would either make them or the city proud because all before her were known for excellence in something, implying they wanted her to be Azure Dragoon and her father told her she's already a failure for only having one silver eye and her brothers in particular plagued her with a strong feeling of guilt that has since weighed down on her and has never left. But once it was the final initiation, she left before she could be evaluated, even if her skills were always seen as incredible by her peers and superiors, doing everything they asked with nothing short of perfection. She realized her entire life has been consumed by the slippery slope of not being good enough, and the harsh training was unbearable on her body and spirit. Knowing she disappointed her family more than she already has, she threw her life away and left Ishgard, thinking it was the better option than to be known as the shameful failure. She hoped that the generations after her would just erase her name from their memory, or think she's dead.
Trying to adjust to a life where she wasn't constantly watched, judged, or under attack was rough on her. She couldn't relax with her body being broken into only being for war. The trauma of all the expectations left her unable to speak, even though she couldn't other than "yes sir no sir." She left as far away as she could from anywhere that spoke in survival, she only wanted to live, as simply Eivana. Her wandering felt second nature, as was watching people to learn how to live a simpler, peaceful life. From the peaceful nature of Gridania, to the bustling ships through Limsa Lominsa, to the competitive spirit of the Gold Saucer, it was slowly replacing her old life and she could finally feel. She found comfort in both lively cities and small villages, not needing to settle in either of them.
She still had the shameful history weighing on her mind and couldn't have communication with others as much as she wants, but yearns to expand her new life, whether it be for the next risky adventure or the next time she could sit down and watch the waves in the harbor.
